Patience: the virtue

We’re both not fools. Yet when we do something so wrong to each other we act like fools…perhaps our love is so strong for one another we are blinded by the fact that life is going on and that we cannot stop it for anything. Even us. Perhaps it’s just me thinking so. And for that I made a grave mistake. Lashing out at you like that was one of the worst things I could do…to hurt you so much, not violently but emotionally…


I want to cry, because I am truly scared this time it is over. When I don’t want it to be. maybe my heart this time is simply refusing reality and that it is holding on to that idealistic life I have for us….after when I told you myself to not live in such an idealistic way.


I’m not to sure what to make of things…I used you to seek comfort when I couldn't’t in anyone else…I foolishly believed you could handle it for me. When you shouldn't’t. It was me who needed to take a good look at myself and how I am to you. But how? When I am too proud to even admit that I did you wrong? Clashing with my absolute love for you… I can’t bear to let you go. Let us go…



But why wallow? Why should I be so miserable? I know you don’t want me to be…because all you ever wanted was for us to be happy….as I do.


Giving you your time is so hard on me…because it just makes me miss you more and more…
but if I am to place my part in hoping we will one day reach our life goals together…then I must be patient….it is something i did not fully feel the need to learn...but now...when i can feel the absolute loneliness...i will be patient...i will control myself...because i love you.