Just Nothing

I feel so sad tonight but the tears have all dried up. How I wish I could still cry like a little boy. Sadness makes its new face - smile. This is one of the saddest moments in my life. If only a person can understand. If only a person knows that what hurts most is to let go of something that will always stick in the system, forever. If only a person knows that its torture giving the impression that it's okay even though it kills you deep inside. If only a person knows its more than torture never being loved in return, and worst knowing that there's somebody that person loves who will never love that person back too. I dunno if you get it, its kinda like a "he loves her, she loves another, another doesn't love her". I'll never forget. I want to forget the past year but its history. I always trust myself. I failed several times but I always get up. This has just gotta take some time. But I'l go home. That's for sure.