Stressed...

...am starting to lose control of everything again and i dont know why. it's been a month! but now, seems like am going back to my old self. the old me that everyone was eyeing on. i feel so helpless. i wanted to scream but i can't, Cox i know nobody will hear me. the people i can count on are gone. they're miles away and i cant just bother them everytime am feeling sad.

...though i have my everyday boardwork and it makes me busy at times, my personal problems still pops at the end of the day. hey! cant you see? i need you badly now. where are you? you're gone again. i need your guidance. anytime now, i will fall. i've waited for you for so long and now that everything's settled, you're missing again. i want to be with you. i want to feel you. be with me!

...am so stressed with work. i need somebody to take care of me, too. if only you can see what's inside my heart then you'll know how much am in pain now.

...dead!