SEXcapades

everybody has a story.

kahit gaano pa katino yang mga kaibigan natin, pag kumagat ang dilim, o ang alak, o ang hormones...nagtratransform yan... it does not matter who we are, what we know or how intelligent we are. this is instinct vs reason.

sex doesn't always mean intercourse.. in this generation, it means a whole lot of things.

but i guess there is nothing wrong with that, really. it is really a part of growing up, and a test: kung hanggang saan ang control ng brain mo over your heart and/or other organs.

marami akong kaibigan na hindi ko alam kung bakit ang hilig magkwento sakin ng mga sexcapades nila. not that i mind, its just i'm worried. either they think i am THAT trustworthy, or am just equally horny. heehee.

there are different sides to stories.. merong magrelasyon talaga, merong between friends at mayron rin namang spontaneous.

yes, this is what boyfriends and girlfriends do.

I never believed this one friend of mine,would one day grow up and do stuff like this. i guess i've always thought of him as the "totoy" guy i met in college. he is very smart and likes to analyze... although he was always akward with girls. what touched me the most about his story was that he says there are certain things he would never do to his girlfriend, because that would mean disrespecting her. he says, no matter how aroused he is, he would always stop whatever it is they're doing when he feels the passion is turning into lust.

give it to this guy still be thinking at this point. ang galing.

so i asked him, what if it starts as passion then escalates to lust? And how does he know where one stops and one starts?

sexcapades between friends always turns into something bad.. always. except maybe in the euphoric universe where it turns out that you actually have romantic intrest in/or is sexually attracted to/ or am deeply in love with this certain friend. and vice versa, syempre. dream on, pare.

so NOT happening.

i cnt imagine how it must feel to have a |friend with benefits|. does it mean that the two of you can successfully compartamentalize where the line between the friendship and the benefits lie?

ano yon, one moment you're telling this guy about your serious, most depressing problems and the next moment, you guys are making out? if you guys are friends, there must be some kind of emotional bondage diba? and from what i know, friends with benefits require absolutely no emotional bond whatsoever. kasi that would actually require caring. can you do the naughty stuff sa taong you care about? whom you actually consider as a friend?

FYI

Cry for those who are wiling to cry for you..i am not asking for fairness in love..cry for them because these are the people who would never hurt you in the first place..

There is no such thing as KARMA, there are no regrets in life..whatever happens, happens for a reason, and even though sometimes that reason is hard to accept or to understand, it is reality..everything that happened before led me to this point..yes, there is something better, and yes, there is also something worse..i wont yearn or despise either of them..whatever happened before, whatever happens now, and whatever that will happen - i accept..i am grateful for only one thing..that I AM ALIVE..

Whatever shit or heaven you are in right now, be grateful for it..coz there's always something better and there will always be something worse...

Wednesday

I've been surfin' around the net for hours... thinking of nothing in particular. i just don't want to sleep yet. But before i retire to bed, let me just share this one realization i had last Wednesday.

after the mass, i went to the chapel and pray. While I was reading the novena to our Mother of Perpetual Help, there was a part where you have to name what you need... It goes something like this... and now in silence, let us pray for our personal intentions...(name it). It made me ponder on what I need or my intentions. Then I realized there's nothing on this earth that I need. I was blessed with so many graces. The thought of it made me cry, because for weeks, I've always been sad, crying once in a while, but I never had the time to stop and thank the Lord for providing me with all I need. I personally didn't have much in need. I guess in a way, it also is to say, that happiness does not come from material or earthly needs. It is something that to be shared with other people, like family, friends and with your special someone. However, this does not change the fact that I am so lucky and blessed. Suddenly, all my worries faded away.

Marvin @ 23

We celebrate our birthdays, the date of our birth. But we do not celebrate the anniversary of the day we were conceived. Perhaps because this is considered a very private matter; besides our parents may not really be aware of the exact date.

October 12---I celebrated my 23rd birthday (it's a holiday) I'm not getting younger anymore.
I just wanna thank and Praise You Lord for giving me another year and for all the people who have been there for me. Family, friends, colleagues, even strangers and You!
My birthday this year is a celebration of friendship, a celebration of life, of love and a celebration of faith...
As I go through life, I'm being open and let life flow! As long as I remain open, I'll see more openings that will lead me to the horizon. It provides me a kaleidoscopic view of my extraordinary celebration of my being human and divine.
I can see that God has blessed me in so many ways...My prayer now is that I will continue to grow more and more each day in the knowledge of my own giftedness, that I will be more convinced that I am called for a purpose, and with this, I should find time to thank God each moment. And never forget that God's loving gaze upon me will always remain no matter what...

First or Last

Some people live by their first impressions. So if you create a good impression on them, they will always trust you, believe in you and love you. Some people live by first impressions, so if you make a very bad first step, it is the end of you.
Other people live by first mistakes. They threaten their loved ones by saying " one more mistake and I will leave you!" Some live by their first mistakes and say "one mistake, one single mistake and you're done."
On the other hand, some people go by last chances. They say, "this is your first and last chance. Nothing else follows after this."
Now, to which of the categories do you belong?
First impressions...first mistakes...last chances?

Gimme more

Allow me to share with you this poem entitled "To know all is to forgive all"

If i knew you and you knew me,
If both of us could clear the sea,
And with an inner sight define,
the meaning of your heart and mine,
I am sure that we would differ less,
and clasp our hands in friendliness.
Our thoughts would pleasant agree,
If I knew you and you know me.

This poem talks about forgiveness. There is no reason to forgive unless there has been a previous hurt or offense. But the reason we get hurt is because we know each other. Someone we don't know can't hurt us.
When we are hurt, we tend to withdraw, refuse to talk or listen and cut all forms of communication. We leave it that way and wait for time to heal our hurts.
Inevitably, we hurt each other. But after hurting each other, it is actually an opportunity to communicate more to know more. The more we hurt one another, the more we should communicate and find out more. And then, the reality---the more you know, the more you forgive. If you know all, you will be able to forgive all.
We probably have this tendency to hold back on forgiveness because we do not know our offender well enough.
Try to know more...try to feel more...try to understand more.
People who know more are very likely to forgive more.

Dear lost and found

We are all afraid of losing a loved one. But the experience of losing and finding again is a mystery. What can we learn from the experience of losing? When we lose somebody, we appreciate even more their value and beauty. It is something we may not realized if our dear one was not momentarily lost.
On the other hand, the mystery of finding back is a reminder for us that we are not in complete control of the situation, that are dear one is not our total possession but belongs to God. If we are able to find back our dear one, it is not because we searched, but because God willed he or she be found again.
In losing, we appreciate more the value of a dear one. In finding, we appreciate more the fact that everyone is a possession and everything happens only through the power of God.

look

When I look at babies sleeping...it makes me realize how fragile life is. When i look at a shooting star blazing...it makes me realize how temporary life is. When i look at the sun rising...it makes me realize how beautiful life is. But, when i look at a person dying...it makes me realize how important life is. Life is beautiful in its fragility, important in its transcience.Let's live life to the fullest. Laugh, love and be grateful! But don't forget the wonderful giver! Amen?Amen!