"God grant me the serenity to accept things that I cannot change;
courage to change things that I can and
wisdom to know the difference..."This prayer reminds me that there are things beyond our control. No matter how hard we try, we have to let go of some things. Acceptance is a way of letting go and moving on. When you learn to accept; letting go and moving on is easier.
However, there are some things that are within our control but don't easily realize that. We sometimes stick to things that we thought are worth sticking to even they hurt us most because we think they complete us somehow. Only realizing later that they barely have meaning in our lives.
That is the purpose of pain somehow, to make us stop..to think things over and hopefully get back on our senses to know what's keep working on and not...
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
Long lost Innocence
Love perseveres. Men change."
After all that I have been through, each time that a situation calls me to remember the past, I realize that I have never really grown out of love...It's just that, I found more and learned. So true enough, it perseveres. But we learn and change.
I just thought of it when I had a conversation last night with a someone special. Weird...after a long time of trying to delete that part of my memory I started digging it out again.
I have changed a lot. Love and revenge changed me. I have loved so much and when I lost it, I fought for it the wrong way. To my mistake; I'm sorry I have gotten you into that mess. Past is past. That was just it. I have lost that innocence that love has tried so hard to keep safe for me. At some point I am sorry about it, but then, I learned and I moved on. It brought me to where I am. I could only be thankful that I didn't totally drown in hell with the kind of life that we could have possibly put ourselves into. To the love that I lost; I thank you. That's it.
It hurts to think of the past, not that I am being sorry for losing or being betrayed or played on but it hurts me to realize how much time and feelings I have wasted then...and it would always hurt to realize not being able to control myself.
I have made my mistake. There's nothing that I can do about it but to move on. Having gone through it all and being honest about it to every person who would ask about it doesn't make me lesser of a person. If they wouldn't be able to accept me for that, fine. I can't do anything about their ignorance. As I have always said before; I am not born to please anybody.
Until I found out I am inlove again, I promised I wouldn't make the same mistake and would try hard to keep it...for good...and may God help me keep it...let the universe conspire...
If it wouldn't be now, then may be next year, the next year or the next and other next...I don't care how long it would let me wait...for as long as it doesn't lead me back to the same trash...
After all that I have been through, each time that a situation calls me to remember the past, I realize that I have never really grown out of love...It's just that, I found more and learned. So true enough, it perseveres. But we learn and change.
I just thought of it when I had a conversation last night with a someone special. Weird...after a long time of trying to delete that part of my memory I started digging it out again.
I have changed a lot. Love and revenge changed me. I have loved so much and when I lost it, I fought for it the wrong way. To my mistake; I'm sorry I have gotten you into that mess. Past is past. That was just it. I have lost that innocence that love has tried so hard to keep safe for me. At some point I am sorry about it, but then, I learned and I moved on. It brought me to where I am. I could only be thankful that I didn't totally drown in hell with the kind of life that we could have possibly put ourselves into. To the love that I lost; I thank you. That's it.
It hurts to think of the past, not that I am being sorry for losing or being betrayed or played on but it hurts me to realize how much time and feelings I have wasted then...and it would always hurt to realize not being able to control myself.
I have made my mistake. There's nothing that I can do about it but to move on. Having gone through it all and being honest about it to every person who would ask about it doesn't make me lesser of a person. If they wouldn't be able to accept me for that, fine. I can't do anything about their ignorance. As I have always said before; I am not born to please anybody.
Until I found out I am inlove again, I promised I wouldn't make the same mistake and would try hard to keep it...for good...and may God help me keep it...let the universe conspire...
If it wouldn't be now, then may be next year, the next year or the next and other next...I don't care how long it would let me wait...for as long as it doesn't lead me back to the same trash...
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Trust VS Mistrust
Trust is a very important thing to me as I am sure it is to everyone. Trust is what makes people stay friends. Without trust we will withdraw and never share our feelings, thoughts, emotions with anyone.
I have had friendships break up and I still hold the same secrets that were told to me during the friendship. I do this not only for those who have shared their secrets but for myself also. I feel there is integrity and honor in safeguarding trust, regardless of what happens to the relationship.
Trust is a sacred thing. The ability to hold that trust with honor and integrity when things may have gone awry is a highly admirable quality. Trust is such a fragile thing as well. Once broken it rarely grows again.
Everyone has had their trust violated at some point in time and it can be devastating.
Trust, honor, loyalty, a man is an empty vessel without these traits.
You know it, I know it, not everyone does.
We must be careful who we place our trust in, good judgment isn't always as good as we first suspected. We can't let a bad judgment or one pathetic person skew our view of humanity. It's more difficult in cyberland to make good judgments, but we are learning aren't we?
I realize that it is only a select few that have no scruples. Yes I am learning.
Our principles should not waver in the face of someone else's unprincipled behavior.
I find it hard to trust, but trust is an important part of friendship, in fact the most important.
Trust is what make the best and truest friends. Sadly, trust is one I do not give out to often, which in turn leaves me a bit friendless. Nobody really knows who I am, so I am able to be honest and trust that all secrets are well secrets!
Trust can be a dangerous thing to give to another, which in my opinion, is why it is hard to gain.
In the right hands it can be a devastating weapon or it could be the most wonderful thing a person could receive. I choose the second one myself.
I don't know you all that well, working on that though, but I still am wanting you to know that I am a person who sticks up for what is right and for the real truth. Its something I have striven for all my life. (is striven even a word?) If you need it I will be there for you or anyone who needs it. THAT is the truth!
"The trust I give.... too soon I fear.....is given well to you....If not returned to me....
I know, mine was not undone."
I have had friendships break up and I still hold the same secrets that were told to me during the friendship. I do this not only for those who have shared their secrets but for myself also. I feel there is integrity and honor in safeguarding trust, regardless of what happens to the relationship.
Trust is a sacred thing. The ability to hold that trust with honor and integrity when things may have gone awry is a highly admirable quality. Trust is such a fragile thing as well. Once broken it rarely grows again.
Everyone has had their trust violated at some point in time and it can be devastating.
Trust, honor, loyalty, a man is an empty vessel without these traits.
You know it, I know it, not everyone does.
We must be careful who we place our trust in, good judgment isn't always as good as we first suspected. We can't let a bad judgment or one pathetic person skew our view of humanity. It's more difficult in cyberland to make good judgments, but we are learning aren't we?
I realize that it is only a select few that have no scruples. Yes I am learning.
Our principles should not waver in the face of someone else's unprincipled behavior.
I find it hard to trust, but trust is an important part of friendship, in fact the most important.
Trust is what make the best and truest friends. Sadly, trust is one I do not give out to often, which in turn leaves me a bit friendless. Nobody really knows who I am, so I am able to be honest and trust that all secrets are well secrets!
Trust can be a dangerous thing to give to another, which in my opinion, is why it is hard to gain.
In the right hands it can be a devastating weapon or it could be the most wonderful thing a person could receive. I choose the second one myself.
I don't know you all that well, working on that though, but I still am wanting you to know that I am a person who sticks up for what is right and for the real truth. Its something I have striven for all my life. (is striven even a word?) If you need it I will be there for you or anyone who needs it. THAT is the truth!
"The trust I give.... too soon I fear.....is given well to you....If not returned to me....
I know, mine was not undone."
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Keep asking
Is there something you are believing God for? Does it seem like it’s taking a long time to come to pass? Be encouraged today! Through faith and patience you will inherit the promise. You can trust that God’s Word is true. Submit your prayers to the Lord, and keep an attitude of faith and expectancy. Keep asking. Keep seeking. Keep knocking on the door, and it will be opened to you. It may seem like it’s taking a long time, but know this: God is working behind the scenes on your behalf. He is orchestrating things in your favor. He is perfecting whatever concerns you. Don’t give up! Start thanking God for His faithfulness in your life. As you stay faithful in your prayers and thanksgiving, the Lord will move mightily on your behalf. He’ll take you places that you’ve never dreamed, and you will live the life of victory He has in store for you.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Talking to myself
Talking to one's self sounds so crazy and weird. . but it is not! Of course you wouldn't take a chance talking out loud in a public place would you? Surely, people would reasonably think that you are going nuts! Worst scenario here would be; people might think that you really are and they would end up calling authorities and in your profound wildest dream would lead you somewhere that you may least expected it. So, be wary and choose the right place to where and when you talk to your self. For me? I talk to my self for just simple heart-warming reasons and if you dread me for this? I am sorry but one thing I could assure you, I am not crazy but I just want to do this my way.
I talk to my self when I am sad; it gives me a feeling of relief in the end;
I talk to my self when I am in trouble; it gives me the ability to weigh things rationally;
I talk to my self when I am mad; it gives me the time I need to calm down;
I talk to my self when I feel hopeless; it gives me the pleasure to think optimistic;
I talk to my self when I had a fight with a loved one; it would strike me a chord and act;
I talk to my self when I am so damn exhausted; it would always loosen me up;
I talk to my self when I lost something; it gives me the assurance that I could still have those back someday;
I talk to my self when I am pressured at work; it would guarantee me the comfort of my bed at the end of the day;
I talk to my self when things go wrong; it would justify me that tomorrow is another new day;
I talk to my self when I am lonely; it would give me a direction to the store to grab an ice cream for a treat;
I talk to my self when I am bruised; it gives me an energy to re-collect myself with courage;
I talk to my self when I am bored; it would remind me to do something new and different;
I talk to my self when I felt so sluggish; it would remind me to get my energy and muscles back;
I talk to my self when I am wounded; it would remind me that sulking has no place in my heart;
But. . . .
I also talk to my self when I am happy; it gives me a gratifying big smile;
I also talk to my self when I have done well; it gives me a feeling of self worthiness;
I also talk to my self when I have won in a game; It pats me big time on my back;
I also talk to my self when I have finished my job on time; it assures me of my competency at work;
I also talk to my self when I have helped someone in need; It humbly assures me of my social obligation to others;
I also talk to my self when I made someone happy; it assures me of my capability;
I also talk to my self when I love someone; it would give me more reasons to love;
I also talk to my self when I have made my pet happy; it gives me a norturing feeling and a rewarding purr;
I also talk to my self when I have done things new to me; it would show me my other raw (untapped) potentials;
I also talk to my self when I thought about my family; it gives me a sense of longing ness;
I also talk to my self when i have seen flowers and greens; it assures me of my appreciation to nature;
I also talk to my self when I have acquired new things; it would remind me that it is not always work and indulgence is ok;
I also talk to my self when I have pacified differences; it gives me the confidence to bridge gaps ;
I also talk to my self when someone made me feel special; it would make me buy a rose and thank the person a 100X.
Undeniably yes, I talk to my self a whole lot and the good thing is? It works wonder on me. It gives me the capability to use my faculties to evaluate things, enjoy my feelings I have inside and the feeling of gratitude that I have afterwards, is a blissful reward. I am not crazy-crazy and weird-weird kinda' person but I talk to myself whenever I feel like connecting to my self and whatever state of senses I am in . . . just like I am talking to you or to anybody else.
In this world where "temporary" is a dog-eared statement and people around us tend to be unreliable and volatile as they too oftentimes gobbled by their own problems, concerns and priorities as well, we tend to shy away and distance ourselves a little and say oopps! not because they don't have ready answers for us but because demanding even a little time from them is somewhat too much for us to humbly ask for. In moments like this, we develop our own approaches and defences on how to deal with our own emotions, judgments, worries, uncertainties, questions and even happiness, joy, excitement and pleasure just to keep our sanity at bay, and the only person you could readily rely on is no other than Y-O-U - - then rely and lean on to that, talk to your self and you will be surprised to see how reliable and wonderful your shots would be that you do not need any intervention of any sort to appraise and evaluate things within our very own range of able reasoning. After all, you couldn't say no (to yourself). . . . could you?
I talk to my self when I am sad; it gives me a feeling of relief in the end;
I talk to my self when I am in trouble; it gives me the ability to weigh things rationally;
I talk to my self when I am mad; it gives me the time I need to calm down;
I talk to my self when I feel hopeless; it gives me the pleasure to think optimistic;
I talk to my self when I had a fight with a loved one; it would strike me a chord and act;
I talk to my self when I am so damn exhausted; it would always loosen me up;
I talk to my self when I lost something; it gives me the assurance that I could still have those back someday;
I talk to my self when I am pressured at work; it would guarantee me the comfort of my bed at the end of the day;
I talk to my self when things go wrong; it would justify me that tomorrow is another new day;
I talk to my self when I am lonely; it would give me a direction to the store to grab an ice cream for a treat;
I talk to my self when I am bruised; it gives me an energy to re-collect myself with courage;
I talk to my self when I am bored; it would remind me to do something new and different;
I talk to my self when I felt so sluggish; it would remind me to get my energy and muscles back;
I talk to my self when I am wounded; it would remind me that sulking has no place in my heart;
But. . . .
I also talk to my self when I am happy; it gives me a gratifying big smile;
I also talk to my self when I have done well; it gives me a feeling of self worthiness;
I also talk to my self when I have won in a game; It pats me big time on my back;
I also talk to my self when I have finished my job on time; it assures me of my competency at work;
I also talk to my self when I have helped someone in need; It humbly assures me of my social obligation to others;
I also talk to my self when I made someone happy; it assures me of my capability;
I also talk to my self when I love someone; it would give me more reasons to love;
I also talk to my self when I have made my pet happy; it gives me a norturing feeling and a rewarding purr;
I also talk to my self when I have done things new to me; it would show me my other raw (untapped) potentials;
I also talk to my self when I thought about my family; it gives me a sense of longing ness;
I also talk to my self when i have seen flowers and greens; it assures me of my appreciation to nature;
I also talk to my self when I have acquired new things; it would remind me that it is not always work and indulgence is ok;
I also talk to my self when I have pacified differences; it gives me the confidence to bridge gaps ;
I also talk to my self when someone made me feel special; it would make me buy a rose and thank the person a 100X.
Undeniably yes, I talk to my self a whole lot and the good thing is? It works wonder on me. It gives me the capability to use my faculties to evaluate things, enjoy my feelings I have inside and the feeling of gratitude that I have afterwards, is a blissful reward. I am not crazy-crazy and weird-weird kinda' person but I talk to myself whenever I feel like connecting to my self and whatever state of senses I am in . . . just like I am talking to you or to anybody else.
In this world where "temporary" is a dog-eared statement and people around us tend to be unreliable and volatile as they too oftentimes gobbled by their own problems, concerns and priorities as well, we tend to shy away and distance ourselves a little and say oopps! not because they don't have ready answers for us but because demanding even a little time from them is somewhat too much for us to humbly ask for. In moments like this, we develop our own approaches and defences on how to deal with our own emotions, judgments, worries, uncertainties, questions and even happiness, joy, excitement and pleasure just to keep our sanity at bay, and the only person you could readily rely on is no other than Y-O-U - - then rely and lean on to that, talk to your self and you will be surprised to see how reliable and wonderful your shots would be that you do not need any intervention of any sort to appraise and evaluate things within our very own range of able reasoning. After all, you couldn't say no (to yourself). . . . could you?
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Piece of me
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING, ESPECIALLY THE PART WHERE YOU HURT ME. . . t he sun again kissed my being as the day started its pretty good, exciting, blessed, harsh and enigmatic earth day. and so before i start my lifeline i would like to thank you for the pain you inflicted in me. the tremendous uncongenial words thrown upon me and the insult who imprinted in my heart is still fresh and vivid in this spiral life of mine. I’m sorry if i offended you, it’s not because I hated you but it’s because my love for you is true but jealous. it’s not me who initiated such but its because you tried to mangle the life i am having. and so as denying and forcing our mutual feelings – and so I agree but it’s no fault if a spiraled person like me goes beyond it – and that it was a consented one for you know and you the true feelings yet you forced me to let it out. why and what the fuck we are in if such will kill me and destroy my being? how could someone do that to me? the one whom I love so much and the one whom i treasured a lot.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I read melancholy
Just now i read somebody's blog...it was emotional. Though the theme was sad and lonesome but i commend the author for being honest exhibiting the words that rhymed into a heartfelt story...
Somehow i feel nostalgic, i can feel i had the same situation long ago but mine was a case of loving someone but never loved in return. I hear the song of yesterday blues again :) but they don't haunt me anymore, not to the point they lead me to brokenheart avenue. I have learned many lessons, numerous trials that made me strong and unbreakable, But sometimes i couldn't help myself wonder if everything was the way i always hoped it to be...happy ever after. We all yearn for "happy ever after" don't we? even it only happens in fairy tales but there is a possibility it can come true, right?
hmmm...Wishful thinking, we are good at it:) i have to be in first place when it comes to imagination. Yes, imagination is all that matters to me when all the world is hurting, I just close my eyes and think everything is the opposite of whats happening in reality and it works well :) even if its just a dream but a worthwhile dream it is.
Going back to that blog, i can share the same sentiments but i do not wish to elaborate and rekindle the past, whats done is done and it happened for a reason. If i can give an advice..perhaps not an advice but a straightforward answer to the writer, i have to say you did your part well, There is nothing more you can do better when you have done your best. "Di ka nagkulang", you just know how to love sincerely. So, if you are thinking what is loving sincerely have to do with your present circumstance and ask further will it help alleviate the yearning and the pangs of solitude? well, yes and yes...it all depends on how adamantly hopeful you are for new beginnings. Loving sincerely is often misunderstood by those who never knew how because it is their imperfection but for those who does... :) you know the answer.
I remember a good friend who told me once, "Loving is meant for a reason and sometimes for only a season" ----> Sounds cheesy right? it does and undoubtedly undeniably true.
if we try to comprehend the phrase, loving someone has always a reason either good, bad or ugly it has to have a reason, even the most trivial cause for it no exception. They say love is a many splendor things, of all that which you seek are in there like a basket full of goodies to relish. But sometimes things can get sour when in the long run & parting ways has to happen. A Sad eventuality due to irresolvable issues and dilemmas but its a normal occurrence as life itself unfolds a new chapter for both lovers. And now Loving for a season comes in to place and its usually the case, when one finds himself/herself to the point of losing the other forever then the relationship was never meant to be. Still there is always something to be glad about despite the insurmountable heaviness of despair deviates you from living normally since being alone is never easy especially when you are accustomed living as one with the significant other. Figuratively, its like you are in the middle of an immovable object in collision with an unstoppable force...you can't describe the feeling.
Truth is i have to cut this blog short, i'm not an expert on this field. And if ever i continue i'm just opening wounds to reckon.
My last message, however the situation is always be hopeful...its the only lifesaver you have until someone rescues you...it only take time. Cheers!
Happy Heart's Day!!! Let's Celebrate LOVE
Somehow i feel nostalgic, i can feel i had the same situation long ago but mine was a case of loving someone but never loved in return. I hear the song of yesterday blues again :) but they don't haunt me anymore, not to the point they lead me to brokenheart avenue. I have learned many lessons, numerous trials that made me strong and unbreakable, But sometimes i couldn't help myself wonder if everything was the way i always hoped it to be...happy ever after. We all yearn for "happy ever after" don't we? even it only happens in fairy tales but there is a possibility it can come true, right?
hmmm...Wishful thinking, we are good at it:) i have to be in first place when it comes to imagination. Yes, imagination is all that matters to me when all the world is hurting, I just close my eyes and think everything is the opposite of whats happening in reality and it works well :) even if its just a dream but a worthwhile dream it is.
Going back to that blog, i can share the same sentiments but i do not wish to elaborate and rekindle the past, whats done is done and it happened for a reason. If i can give an advice..perhaps not an advice but a straightforward answer to the writer, i have to say you did your part well, There is nothing more you can do better when you have done your best. "Di ka nagkulang", you just know how to love sincerely. So, if you are thinking what is loving sincerely have to do with your present circumstance and ask further will it help alleviate the yearning and the pangs of solitude? well, yes and yes...it all depends on how adamantly hopeful you are for new beginnings. Loving sincerely is often misunderstood by those who never knew how because it is their imperfection but for those who does... :) you know the answer.
I remember a good friend who told me once, "Loving is meant for a reason and sometimes for only a season" ----> Sounds cheesy right? it does and undoubtedly undeniably true.
if we try to comprehend the phrase, loving someone has always a reason either good, bad or ugly it has to have a reason, even the most trivial cause for it no exception. They say love is a many splendor things, of all that which you seek are in there like a basket full of goodies to relish. But sometimes things can get sour when in the long run & parting ways has to happen. A Sad eventuality due to irresolvable issues and dilemmas but its a normal occurrence as life itself unfolds a new chapter for both lovers. And now Loving for a season comes in to place and its usually the case, when one finds himself/herself to the point of losing the other forever then the relationship was never meant to be. Still there is always something to be glad about despite the insurmountable heaviness of despair deviates you from living normally since being alone is never easy especially when you are accustomed living as one with the significant other. Figuratively, its like you are in the middle of an immovable object in collision with an unstoppable force...you can't describe the feeling.
Truth is i have to cut this blog short, i'm not an expert on this field. And if ever i continue i'm just opening wounds to reckon.
My last message, however the situation is always be hopeful...its the only lifesaver you have until someone rescues you...it only take time. Cheers!
Happy Heart's Day!!! Let's Celebrate LOVE
Monday, February 11, 2008
V day
The month of the hearts...February and it's day on 14th.
So what's so special about this event? A lot, all those mushy stuffs, chocolates, presents with the color red and the ever unfailing heart symbol accompanied with sweet lines that melts you to the core. All the things that makes you feel like in cloud 9....yup a collection of delicatessens you only get to have at it's fullness on this day...if, that is your attached;)
haha unlikely from someone who doesn't have anyone should explain tid bits on it :P I never celebrated Valentine's day with anyone though i really wished i had but fate doesn't seem to want me with anybody sincere enough. I guess bad luck on my side, well not really, i should be fair since there were those who gave signals to be a contender but obnoxiously suplado ako lol haha:) Because of that Character...solitude is my friend, i deserve it somehow.
But i remember couple of years ago i used to celebrate it with someone very special, the best part i recall was the time we were on bay side watching as the sunset goes down. Serene and tranquil backdrop i converse much about everyday life, my dreams and goals......it was all nice, that is all i can describe. i can still smell the scent of sea breeze on that day like it was yesterday and i want to enliven back again. Perhaps that would be a good idea, since i have no one to celebrate i might as well call and ask again.
Isn't that right Lord? it's you and me again on hearts day like it was years ago.
So what's so special about this event? A lot, all those mushy stuffs, chocolates, presents with the color red and the ever unfailing heart symbol accompanied with sweet lines that melts you to the core. All the things that makes you feel like in cloud 9....yup a collection of delicatessens you only get to have at it's fullness on this day...if, that is your attached;)
haha unlikely from someone who doesn't have anyone should explain tid bits on it :P I never celebrated Valentine's day with anyone though i really wished i had but fate doesn't seem to want me with anybody sincere enough. I guess bad luck on my side, well not really, i should be fair since there were those who gave signals to be a contender but obnoxiously suplado ako lol haha:) Because of that Character...solitude is my friend, i deserve it somehow.
But i remember couple of years ago i used to celebrate it with someone very special, the best part i recall was the time we were on bay side watching as the sunset goes down. Serene and tranquil backdrop i converse much about everyday life, my dreams and goals......it was all nice, that is all i can describe. i can still smell the scent of sea breeze on that day like it was yesterday and i want to enliven back again. Perhaps that would be a good idea, since i have no one to celebrate i might as well call and ask again.
Isn't that right Lord? it's you and me again on hearts day like it was years ago.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Thy Will be Done!
No more hiding. No more running away. I surrender! I wish to write the details but i would leave that to another entry. Funny how we sometimes ask the same question to get a favorable response knowing that we'll still be lead to the same answer. When God said it, that settles it. It's final! We may take detours and be delayed but God's plan will still prevail. Everything that happens is either God-set or God-used. We may try to argue and bargain, but still we'll just end up hurting ourselves. So we might as well cooperate. "Whoever obeys his command will come to no harm, and the wise heart will know the proper time and procedure. For there is a proper time and procedure for every matter, though a person may be weighed down by misery." (Ecclesiastes 8:5-6)
And yes Lord, I am stepping up. To your grace I will cling to. No more excuses!
God would really send people to confirm the Word that you have received from Him. It may be from a random encounter from people you barely know, from a preaching of a Pastor/Priest or just through a conversation with a friend. Amazing how God can really make his presence and promise obvious. His Word becoming flesh, an experience that you wish not to let go of.
I had been asking the Lord why I am still in the Philippines. And I was directed to His Word given on the start of this year. I keep a pen and paper journal and was prompted to go back to my old devotions. Amazing how God will make us remember of the promise through His Word that has been spoken to us. It led me to Isaiah 61 and Joshua 1: 3-18.
In conclusion, I realize that everything that we ask/search for, has already been graciously given to us. As the Word has already been spoken so shall it be done. Isaiah 55:11 says, "So shall my word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return to me void (without producing effect, useless), but it shall accomplish that which I please and purpose, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it." Sometimes we don't really need a New Word. Sometimes we need to go back to an old promise and declare it to become a reality. What we need is a fresh revelation of a familiar WORD, for it to become a Glorious Experience- An Encounter.
As for me, am just grateful and humbled for His word that transforms and Am looking forward to more revelations and best days ahead.
Have a blessed Sunday!
And yes Lord, I am stepping up. To your grace I will cling to. No more excuses!
God would really send people to confirm the Word that you have received from Him. It may be from a random encounter from people you barely know, from a preaching of a Pastor/Priest or just through a conversation with a friend. Amazing how God can really make his presence and promise obvious. His Word becoming flesh, an experience that you wish not to let go of.
I had been asking the Lord why I am still in the Philippines. And I was directed to His Word given on the start of this year. I keep a pen and paper journal and was prompted to go back to my old devotions. Amazing how God will make us remember of the promise through His Word that has been spoken to us. It led me to Isaiah 61 and Joshua 1: 3-18.
In conclusion, I realize that everything that we ask/search for, has already been graciously given to us. As the Word has already been spoken so shall it be done. Isaiah 55:11 says, "So shall my word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return to me void (without producing effect, useless), but it shall accomplish that which I please and purpose, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it." Sometimes we don't really need a New Word. Sometimes we need to go back to an old promise and declare it to become a reality. What we need is a fresh revelation of a familiar WORD, for it to become a Glorious Experience- An Encounter.
As for me, am just grateful and humbled for His word that transforms and Am looking forward to more revelations and best days ahead.
Have a blessed Sunday!
Saturday, February 9, 2008
That's why it's falling
Sometimes it's stupid to fall for someone that fast, i mean how could u fall for someone you just met right? but i think that's the mystery of it ..... that's why it's called falling inlove.... you don't plan it nor think about it you just fall.... the hard part is if the person your falling with won't catch you. It sucks but that's reality we can't change it. We can't blame them or get mad at them it's not their fault it's nobody's fault actually just accept it the way it is. You just have to be ready always especially if it ends up the way you don't want it to end up. Save a little strengh for yourself, don't assume they feel the same for you it'll hurt so much and you'll feel stupid. It takes time... we can never predict the future maybe now you're not on the same page but who knows maybe one day they will lucky you. And If they don't then unlucky them.... So be careful if you can control it control it don't ever ever ever fall for their words that easy beggings are really like that sweet,happy, fun, exciting.... if you can't control it then just let it be be ready for the consequence you have to face.....whatever the outcome is im sure it'll make you a stronger or better person.... Good luck guys....
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Kung Hei Fat Choi
I got this from this website (Exploring Chinese History):
Many centuries ago, the Chinese had no means to measure time. The Yellow Jade Emperor, the Emperor of Heaven, decided to arrange a contest. He invited all animals to a race on his birthday. The first 12 animals who cross the swift current river and reach the designated shore would be assigned to the 12 Zodiac Years.
The cat and the rat, who were once good friends and poor swimmers, convinced the ox to carry them across the river. Being naive, gullible, good-natured, the powerful swimmer ox agreed. As they were crossing the river, the rat was worried that the cat might win the race; so the rat pushed the cat into the river. This explains why cats hate rats, because they never forgave the rat for the incident. Right before the ox and the rat reached the shore, the rat jumped off the ox's back and took first place in the race.
As the Jade Emperor named the ox as the 2nd zodiac animal, the tiger reached the finished line. Panting his way toward the Jade Emperor, the tiger explained that he had difficulty crossing the river because the current kept pushing him down stream. With his powerful strength, he was able to reach the shore safely. The Emperor recorded the tiger as the 3rd zodiac animal.
From a distance, the crowd heard a thumping noise. Twitching its pinkish nose, the rabbit told the crowd that he had to hop from one stone to another in order to cross the river. Luckily, he was able to get hold of a floating log which finally washed him to shore. The Emperor named the rabbit, the 4th zodiac animal.
In the 5th place came the dragon flying and belching fire in the air. Jade Emperor was very curious as to why the dragon came in late for he can fly and swim. Because the mighty dragon could not bare to see his people and all the creatures on earth suffer a drought, he had to stop to make rain. When he reached the river, he spotted a helpless little rabbit clutching tightly to a log, so he gave a little puff and blew the log with the rabbit on it to the shore.
Just as the Jade Emperor complimented the dragon for his consideration, he heard the horse whining and galloping. From out of the horse's hoof sneaked a shrewd slimy snake. The sudden appearance and the hissing of the snake startled the horse and made him jump backwards, thus forcing the horse to fall in 7th place and the snake to take the 6th place in the race.
From a distance, approached the sheep, the monkey, and the rooster. The rooster proudly described how he had spotted a raft from a high ground, picked up the sheep, and the monkey. Along the way, the monkey and the sheep helped clear the weeds, pulled and pushed the raft to the shore. The Emperor complimented the trios for their combined efforts and named the sheep the 8th of the zodiac animals, the monkey the 9th, and the rooster the 10th.
Just as the Emperor was making the record official, next came the dog . The dog was trying to justify to the Emperor why, being one of the best swimmers, he was late. It turned out that the dog hadn't had a bath for a long time. The river water was so clean and fresh that he had to stop. The dog was recorded as the 11th zodiac animal.
Jade Emperor was about to dismiss the crowd and retire from the long day when he heard an oink and a squeal from the little pig who was waddling down the path. Needless to explain, the pig was hungry during the race and he stopped for a feast. After the feast, he felt tired and took a little nap. The little pig made it as the last of the 12th zodiac animals.
2008 is the year of the rat! the first placer (shrewd, little ... )
2007 was indeed the year of the little pig. festive and sleep-inducing afterwards.
so the race begins all over again... ready, set, go!!!
Many centuries ago, the Chinese had no means to measure time. The Yellow Jade Emperor, the Emperor of Heaven, decided to arrange a contest. He invited all animals to a race on his birthday. The first 12 animals who cross the swift current river and reach the designated shore would be assigned to the 12 Zodiac Years.
The cat and the rat, who were once good friends and poor swimmers, convinced the ox to carry them across the river. Being naive, gullible, good-natured, the powerful swimmer ox agreed. As they were crossing the river, the rat was worried that the cat might win the race; so the rat pushed the cat into the river. This explains why cats hate rats, because they never forgave the rat for the incident. Right before the ox and the rat reached the shore, the rat jumped off the ox's back and took first place in the race.
As the Jade Emperor named the ox as the 2nd zodiac animal, the tiger reached the finished line. Panting his way toward the Jade Emperor, the tiger explained that he had difficulty crossing the river because the current kept pushing him down stream. With his powerful strength, he was able to reach the shore safely. The Emperor recorded the tiger as the 3rd zodiac animal.
From a distance, the crowd heard a thumping noise. Twitching its pinkish nose, the rabbit told the crowd that he had to hop from one stone to another in order to cross the river. Luckily, he was able to get hold of a floating log which finally washed him to shore. The Emperor named the rabbit, the 4th zodiac animal.
In the 5th place came the dragon flying and belching fire in the air. Jade Emperor was very curious as to why the dragon came in late for he can fly and swim. Because the mighty dragon could not bare to see his people and all the creatures on earth suffer a drought, he had to stop to make rain. When he reached the river, he spotted a helpless little rabbit clutching tightly to a log, so he gave a little puff and blew the log with the rabbit on it to the shore.
Just as the Jade Emperor complimented the dragon for his consideration, he heard the horse whining and galloping. From out of the horse's hoof sneaked a shrewd slimy snake. The sudden appearance and the hissing of the snake startled the horse and made him jump backwards, thus forcing the horse to fall in 7th place and the snake to take the 6th place in the race.
From a distance, approached the sheep, the monkey, and the rooster. The rooster proudly described how he had spotted a raft from a high ground, picked up the sheep, and the monkey. Along the way, the monkey and the sheep helped clear the weeds, pulled and pushed the raft to the shore. The Emperor complimented the trios for their combined efforts and named the sheep the 8th of the zodiac animals, the monkey the 9th, and the rooster the 10th.
Just as the Emperor was making the record official, next came the dog . The dog was trying to justify to the Emperor why, being one of the best swimmers, he was late. It turned out that the dog hadn't had a bath for a long time. The river water was so clean and fresh that he had to stop. The dog was recorded as the 11th zodiac animal.
Jade Emperor was about to dismiss the crowd and retire from the long day when he heard an oink and a squeal from the little pig who was waddling down the path. Needless to explain, the pig was hungry during the race and he stopped for a feast. After the feast, he felt tired and took a little nap. The little pig made it as the last of the 12th zodiac animals.
2008 is the year of the rat! the first placer (shrewd, little ... )
2007 was indeed the year of the little pig. festive and sleep-inducing afterwards.
so the race begins all over again... ready, set, go!!!
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Patience: the virtue
We’re both not fools. Yet when we do something so wrong to each other we act like fools…perhaps our love is so strong for one another we are blinded by the fact that life is going on and that we cannot stop it for anything. Even us. Perhaps it’s just me thinking so. And for that I made a grave mistake. Lashing out at you like that was one of the worst things I could do…to hurt you so much, not violently but emotionally…
I want to cry, because I am truly scared this time it is over. When I don’t want it to be. maybe my heart this time is simply refusing reality and that it is holding on to that idealistic life I have for us….after when I told you myself to not live in such an idealistic way.
I’m not to sure what to make of things…I used you to seek comfort when I couldn't’t in anyone else…I foolishly believed you could handle it for me. When you shouldn't’t. It was me who needed to take a good look at myself and how I am to you. But how? When I am too proud to even admit that I did you wrong? Clashing with my absolute love for you… I can’t bear to let you go. Let us go…
But why wallow? Why should I be so miserable? I know you don’t want me to be…because all you ever wanted was for us to be happy….as I do.
Giving you your time is so hard on me…because it just makes me miss you more and more…
but if I am to place my part in hoping we will one day reach our life goals together…then I must be patient….it is something i did not fully feel the need to learn...but now...when i can feel the absolute loneliness...i will be patient...i will control myself...because i love you.
I want to cry, because I am truly scared this time it is over. When I don’t want it to be. maybe my heart this time is simply refusing reality and that it is holding on to that idealistic life I have for us….after when I told you myself to not live in such an idealistic way.
I’m not to sure what to make of things…I used you to seek comfort when I couldn't’t in anyone else…I foolishly believed you could handle it for me. When you shouldn't’t. It was me who needed to take a good look at myself and how I am to you. But how? When I am too proud to even admit that I did you wrong? Clashing with my absolute love for you… I can’t bear to let you go. Let us go…
But why wallow? Why should I be so miserable? I know you don’t want me to be…because all you ever wanted was for us to be happy….as I do.
Giving you your time is so hard on me…because it just makes me miss you more and more…
but if I am to place my part in hoping we will one day reach our life goals together…then I must be patient….it is something i did not fully feel the need to learn...but now...when i can feel the absolute loneliness...i will be patient...i will control myself...because i love you.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Happy Tuesday
Today was a happy tuesday... not because the weather is getting a bit better now and it has nothing to do with the fact that i did get 5 hrs of sleep last night, not 2, not 3 but 5!...
i woke up this morning feeling so much better, this is a very rare feeling... you see i'm not a morning person, i hate waking up before 9 or 10 am... blame it on my sleeping disorder, the so-called insomia... i felt like a different person.
i dreamt of you last night... it was the most beautiful dream i've had for such a long time... if only i could command my brain to dream of you every night for the rest of my life, i would never wanna wake up again... ya make me happy :-) ya put a smile on my face... funny how yer the reason of my very first happy monday when ya don't even know me... thank you anyway.
i could only talk to you, touch you, be with you in my dreams...only in my dreams but thank you anyway... i am content but will never be satisfied.. hoping these dreams will soon come true...
- good night baby! thanks for staying! sleep tight
i woke up this morning feeling so much better, this is a very rare feeling... you see i'm not a morning person, i hate waking up before 9 or 10 am... blame it on my sleeping disorder, the so-called insomia... i felt like a different person.
i dreamt of you last night... it was the most beautiful dream i've had for such a long time... if only i could command my brain to dream of you every night for the rest of my life, i would never wanna wake up again... ya make me happy :-) ya put a smile on my face... funny how yer the reason of my very first happy monday when ya don't even know me... thank you anyway.
i could only talk to you, touch you, be with you in my dreams...only in my dreams but thank you anyway... i am content but will never be satisfied.. hoping these dreams will soon come true...
- good night baby! thanks for staying! sleep tight
Sunday, February 3, 2008
LESSON 101
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.
You never know who these people may be - a roommate, a neighbor, a professor, a friend, a lover, or even a complete stranger - but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.
Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are sometimes the most important ones.
If someone loves you, give love back to them in whatever way you can, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, let them go & move on, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and listen to what they have to say.
Let yourself fall in love, break free from all the pains, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.
You can make anything you wish of your life. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.
And if you love someone tell them & show them, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.
You never know who these people may be - a roommate, a neighbor, a professor, a friend, a lover, or even a complete stranger - but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.
Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are sometimes the most important ones.
If someone loves you, give love back to them in whatever way you can, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, let them go & move on, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and listen to what they have to say.
Let yourself fall in love, break free from all the pains, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.
You can make anything you wish of your life. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.
And if you love someone tell them & show them, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Jealous
Question: Why do I get so jealous when my partner talks to other people?
Answer: When you first connected with your partner and looked into their eyes, it felt like he or she was the only person in the room. As you get deeper into your relationship and call yourselves a couple, the realization hits you: You and your partner are not alone on this planet. There are others! Are they a threat?
When we are in a committed relationship, we assume the connection we have with each other will be strong enough to fend off outside threats. In some ways, this you-belong-to-me-and-I-belong-to-you mentality is sweet; it's the stuff of pop songs and poetry. But sometimes the intensity of that connection is too strong.
When one partner sees everyone whom his or her partner comes into contact with as a potential threat, it is
a sign that jealousy has taken hold
a sign that jealousy has taken hold. Shakespeare called it "the green-eyed monster," and once it gets a hold of your relationship, it sinks its teeth in and can rip it apart.
What causes jealousy?
If you've got strong feelings of jealousy, it's probably a sign that you don't have enough trust in your partner that he or she is being faithful to you. That lack of trust may be prompted by one of four factors.
You may feel insecure about your self-worth. In these cases, either you've been raised to believe, or some part of your inner self feels, that you just don't measure up. Because you don't love yourself, you can't believe that others would love you, so you live in fear that your partner's "true" feelings will be revealed and she will leave.
You're prone to cheating on your partner -- maybe even have done so. Knowing what you're capable of, you project that behavior onto your partner.
You and your partner haven't yet figured out how to
establish safe boundaries within the relationship
establish safe boundaries within the relationship. Having a tight bond is about building walls around your love with windows that allow others to be part of it -- not doors where competing lovers can walk right in and disrupt your home. Because you don't know what's permissible within the relationship and what's not, you're constantly on your toes.
Your mate is cheating on you. Cheating doesn't have to include sex; it often has to do with making emotional connections to others outside the relationship. If your partner is sharing things about your private life with attractive members of the opposite sex, it robs a sense of intimacy from your relationship and leaves you feeling vulnerable.
Knowing the factors that lead to jealousy is an important first step to getting things fixed.
Put your focus on building trust
Put your focus on building trust. If you've got some growing up to do, therapy may help. Both of you have to learn how to set boundaries in the relationship. That requires respecting your mate's definition of limits of outside relationships from the start.
Over time, as trust builds, you and your partner can redefine what feels safe for the relationship. After all, when you've got a great relationship, you want to share it with the world.
(ref.yahoo)
Answer: When you first connected with your partner and looked into their eyes, it felt like he or she was the only person in the room. As you get deeper into your relationship and call yourselves a couple, the realization hits you: You and your partner are not alone on this planet. There are others! Are they a threat?
When we are in a committed relationship, we assume the connection we have with each other will be strong enough to fend off outside threats. In some ways, this you-belong-to-me-and-I-belong-to-you mentality is sweet; it's the stuff of pop songs and poetry. But sometimes the intensity of that connection is too strong.
When one partner sees everyone whom his or her partner comes into contact with as a potential threat, it is
a sign that jealousy has taken hold
a sign that jealousy has taken hold. Shakespeare called it "the green-eyed monster," and once it gets a hold of your relationship, it sinks its teeth in and can rip it apart.
What causes jealousy?
If you've got strong feelings of jealousy, it's probably a sign that you don't have enough trust in your partner that he or she is being faithful to you. That lack of trust may be prompted by one of four factors.
You may feel insecure about your self-worth. In these cases, either you've been raised to believe, or some part of your inner self feels, that you just don't measure up. Because you don't love yourself, you can't believe that others would love you, so you live in fear that your partner's "true" feelings will be revealed and she will leave.
You're prone to cheating on your partner -- maybe even have done so. Knowing what you're capable of, you project that behavior onto your partner.
You and your partner haven't yet figured out how to
establish safe boundaries within the relationship
establish safe boundaries within the relationship. Having a tight bond is about building walls around your love with windows that allow others to be part of it -- not doors where competing lovers can walk right in and disrupt your home. Because you don't know what's permissible within the relationship and what's not, you're constantly on your toes.
Your mate is cheating on you. Cheating doesn't have to include sex; it often has to do with making emotional connections to others outside the relationship. If your partner is sharing things about your private life with attractive members of the opposite sex, it robs a sense of intimacy from your relationship and leaves you feeling vulnerable.
Knowing the factors that lead to jealousy is an important first step to getting things fixed.
Put your focus on building trust
Put your focus on building trust. If you've got some growing up to do, therapy may help. Both of you have to learn how to set boundaries in the relationship. That requires respecting your mate's definition of limits of outside relationships from the start.
Over time, as trust builds, you and your partner can redefine what feels safe for the relationship. After all, when you've got a great relationship, you want to share it with the world.
(ref.yahoo)
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