c'est la vie

Being so busy at the moment makes me think back and see how my life from the previous, and endure the gift of today, my precious dreams...
I may not be always prepared for things that come along my way, but I do have a pocket full of dreams. I am still hopeful. I don't enjoy much of my time now since I am occupied to the maximum yet I am enjoying the good side of life; being a HAPPier person ....
Living in my aspirations makes me more willing to face the battles of life... Though I may always fall with these obstacles of mine, I know that there is always a good reason behind the downfalls...
I love whatever it is coz it makes me the person that I am now ... and C'EST LA VIE ! THAT IS LIFE!

Best Actor

What is happiness???

I used to be a very happy person.. But recently, i found myself very down, easily get mad.

I realized, when we're care about one person, we want everything from her/him. But, he/she will just ignore it and pretend like nothing happened. This kind of feeling is very bad...

I dunno, maybe i'm caring too much for this person. And i had this kinda feeling, just like a song, called: Hate that I love You~~~ hahaha.. i do, really hate myself, so useless...

Think i should be alone, rather than get myself hurt again... Wish me luck... :)

ooppss..just kiddin'! im ok! im happy! nag emote lang ako! bleh

reality check

My head is so groggy now... didn't manage to sleep well last nite. Probably got very bogged about my bhe's txt.I'm worried! Get well soon bhe! I love you.
anyway, last week was really crazy for me at work... even now, am still very boggy down by work and church activities.
totally looking forward for a brighter tomorrow! Yeah!!

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A sign to eat more
It had been quite a long time since the last time I weighed myself, an activity I used to do everyday : when I woke up in the morning, after I took my meal, or every time I felt I was light in weight.
'The more you focus on one problem, the bigger the problem will be.' (The Secret book)
So I decided to stop and said good-bye with my scales for a several weeks. I arrested my so great desirability to know my weight.
This morning, after I took my bath, didn't know why, I suddenly wanted to weigh. Happily, despite of my brutality of eating, my weight has stayed the same :)

the countdown

38 days to go before Christmas and as our Father God GIVE His only Son,Jesus to this earth and died on the cross to save us because He LOVE; and Christ Jesus willing to go up to the cross and died is because He really LOVE you and me so much..

People always think that Christmas is the season of "mad party","drunkenness","sexuality", which is the season that evil...But they are WRONG!!! Totally wrong..

Christmas is the season of LOVE and GIVE, for celebrate Christmas is to memorize the 1st coming of our LORD Jesus, for He come to save us, renews people character, restore people from brokenness, heal sicknesses, deliver people from the evil one, and provide us all the thing that we need.. He willing to so humble Himself, come from HEAVEN and to this earth and purposely died on the cross, because He LOVE and willing to GIVE everything He has to us..

So, let this coming Christmas be a season of LOVE and GIVE, go and help peoples that in need, LOVE them and GIVE them..

black or white

When we were younger, we could easily choose or decide what side we wanted to be in: black or white, left or right, A or B, yes or no: but as we grew older we learned that gray, middle, C and maybe exists. And sometimes we have to choose the gray, the middle, the C or the maybe and try to see things and somehow experience what would it be like before fully deciding on what side we really want. It's just like dipping your feet in the pool but still be able to get out of it as soon as you realized that the water's too cold for you.


So many things are going through my mind, im afraid of fully get in because im scared that i might get hurt yet im afraid of losing a spot so i decided to take my time thinking on another side.

While thinking, i went to other places to try my luck. I continuously dipped my feet in different resort hoping i'll find a resort somewhere else that will make me feel contented and happy, then suddenly i realized that i already found that resort, that the first resort i dipped my feet into was actually the resort that gave me what i'm looking for.

So i went back, but i found out that its too late, there was just enough room for one when i left and someone else took it. I had no choice but to go to other places and continue to seek for another resort hoping that i can still find aplace that can give me the happiness and satisfaction i was looking for. But nothing can give me the same feeling...

So i decided to go back to give it another try hoping that there will be a room for me this time, but no one's leaving, no one's coming out, and the only room left is on the sideline enough for my feet. So i spotted a little light and gave it another try, i dipped my feet again hoping for the best. I waited and waited but still it's not happening, no one's coming out, time's still not on my side. I know that i wanted and needed it so badly, so i have no choice but to wait hoping that someday, i will be given another chance as i promised myself that next time, i will definitely going in.

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But i waited long enough, i'm losing my patience and i felt like giving up; i realized it's not worth the time anymore and then i asked myself...---why are you still waiting for something you're not sure of when you can have something (that is willingly given to you) that can (somehow) give you happiness? Why not live with what you have and with what you can have and just be happy with it, than try to reach for something you know is leaning closer to impossible?

the end...

A reawakening!

Got a rude reawakening last week....Have to thank someone and a strange "dream" for the reawakening from another dream which have belonged to 2 years ago. Perhaps i was lazy or just perhaps im too naive into thinking a miracle will happen someday. But with this reawakening, i know whether i like it or not, i have to make a move. It is no longer mine anymore. It was never mine in the first place.The miracle i kept in my heart has vanished. Perhaps, there shall be a new light in my life. Somehow or rather, God had its plans for me i think. He had made me tasted the bitterness of losing all the time and not forgetting the sweetness of gaining something. I wont say i enjoyed the bitterness of losing but perhaps sometimes without losing, u will never learnt the importance of appreciating something while you had it and may be it was'nt destined to be mine. I will change my directions now that i know finally, the dream is over. i will have to search for a direction that belongs to mine, exclusively mine now. If i keep on dreaming, i will be lying to myself. It wont benefit anyone, not me especially. Certainly, I know this day will come and now, like it or not, i had to face it. A voice taps behind my mind " Mars, this dream is over. Please wake up !No more crying and regretting!

for you bhe

"Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward in the same direction."

One of the books i wanna read with you,we'll learn and dig the depth of this masterpiece together.

Everyday i wake up wishing that you are right beside me to make an ordinary day seem like an extraordinary one


Love is never love until you share it with someone.........
someone like you bhe.
I love you!

Happy monthsary

stardust the movie

Welcome to the realm of Stardust, a fantastic fantasy adapted from author Neil Gaiman's book of the same name that wastes no time constructing a dense mythology overflowing with scorned princes, fiendish warlocks, airborne pirates, and the aforementioned star named Yvaine -- played with an ethereal chip on her shoulder by a glowing Danes.

Here are some of the lines from the movie that strucked me most...

"...but when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and.... Is this love? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."


Reviews:
Stardust provides the awe-inspiring fantasy that usually attracts saucer-eyed young ones, but doesn't shy away from murder, dark magic, and adult jokes. It's a breath of fresh air after months of summer blockbusters aimed squarely at male teenagers. Stardust promises storybook adventure for grownups, who require (and deserve) a little fairy dust blown their way from time to time.


If i were to rate, 5 being the highest...
I give it a score of 4.

According to Sean O'Connell
It's not a blimp, it's a zeppelin!

THOUGHTS

Maybe the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and
swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was
the best conversation you've ever had.

Maybe it is true that we don't know what we have got until we lose it,
but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until
it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love
you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in
their heart; but if it does not, be content it grew in yours.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like
someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget
someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that
fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a
smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your
heart smile.

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just
want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you
want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all
the things you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make
you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you
happy.

Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you,
it probably hurts the other person, too.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have
searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the
importance of people who have touched their lives.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you
can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and
heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was
smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you are the one who is
smiling and everyone around you is crying.